Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Emotionally Exhausted

We had BG's visitation this evening. It was harder than I thought it would be. But at least I had lots of friends around me. I think if I had been there by myself I would have lost it.

They gave us time and even loaned us a state vehicle so we could all go as a group. Or several groups, actually. That was nice of them.

When I came back and went out on the yard it was a good thing that nothing happened. I had to fight to keep myself focused on where I was and what I was doing, and that isn't good. I should have gone up and said "Hey, I'm apparently toast. I need to go." But pigheaded me hung around until Sgt Uncle Buck and Lt Strong came up and said "Man, you look tired. We have plenty of people. Go home."

So I did. And it was a good thing. I'm worn.

The funeral is tomorrow right before work. I'm sure I'll be in fine form then. Yeah.

We'll see.

Wednesday will be Dare Day. I dare one of those knuckleheads to get stupid the way our mood has been lately. It's also National Go Barefoot Day, Stand For Children Day and Say Something Nice Day.


  1. Say Something Nice Day

    I think it's very nice that you let them send you home. It's never a good idea to work with criminals when your head and heart are otherwise occupied. It's also very nice that they gave you guys a state car so you could go see your friend.

  2. Sheesh. You should get a day off. At least take a day off the blog. I hope the writing works as a good outlet. Good luck.

  3. Those things always drain me, too. The last time I went to one I took the next day off and just napped all day.

  4. Straight to work after a funeral? Woof. That's pretty rough.

  5. He was an awesome person. I am very sorry to hear about his passing. My thoughts are with you and everyone who was fortunate enough to call BG a friend.

    -Mrs. Dorothy / Whited

  6. Chanel- Sometimes the higher ups can do the right thing when you force them to. And I should have gone home much sooner.

    Brent- I wanted to work to help keep my mind busy. It sort of worked.

    Doug- I feel like I could sleep for a week.

    Sunday- Thank you, dear.

    Bryan- I need to keep busy or I'll bite something. I was in the comm room tonight so I couldn't screw up too bad.

    Ms Dorothy- Thanks, love. We miss you too.