Monday, June 21, 2010


Trepidation. No, it's not a disease. Websters describes it as a state of alarm, fear or worry. A lingering sense of dread.

I was so worried that I wouldn't get one of those jobs I bid on and all the while secretly wishing I wouldn't. On the way into work this afternoon I had to talk myself out of going to the Major and rescinding my bid so I could stay where I was.

Why on earth would I do such a crazy thing? Why would i purposefully keep myself down in the Hive where it's loud and stinky and stressful all of the time?

Because it's my box. My comfort zone. My house. I know what needs to be done and I know how it works and i usually don't have to wait for instructions. I can just go and do my thing.

Plus, I'm somebody there. I'm the answer guy when things go south. I guess it's my ego straining at the leash.

But I didn't go talk to the Major and I got the Saturday/Sunday job. So I'll be home weekends now. And since my new job starts on Sunday, July 4th, it turns out that I get a three day weekend out of the deal. The first time I've had the 4th off in a few years. Pretty sweet, I guess.

So I get to work one day in the Comm Room passing out keys and radios, one day on B-yard and three days wherever they need me.

I guess I can live with that.

I was still a little worried about going out to places where I don't have the answers and don't always know what to do, but Sgt Miz P and Chucky and even BG were very supportive and told me how much better I would feel once I got out of the place. As BG said "They won't expect you to know anything or do anything and if you do know something, they'll think it's a miracle!"

I guess he's right.

So I'm happy and sad.

Two more weeks down in the Hive. Then we'll see what comes next.

I'll be in touch. You can count on that.


  1. Congratulations on the new post! I can only imagine how bittersweet it is for you.

  2. It's not so bad out of the Hive. It will take some time to get used to the slower pace out here. But after a little while you'll get used to it. Kinda makes you feel like you're getting paid for very little actual work. Kick back and enjoy!

  3. Drew- It's good and bad. I'm halfway glad I didn't talk myself out of it. I'll probably live longer out of the Hive.

    Peggy Sue- Hopefully i won't drive anyone else crazy while i slow back down to their speed. Or myself, for that matter.