Business As Usual

I haven't posted in three days. Part of it is that I'm still in a funk from getting sick from the flu shot and then having to work the sixteen hour shift on saturday. That just throws me all out of whack now. I'd been having sleep problems for the last few years and finally went to the doctor about it maybe six months ago. I had tried all of the OTC things I could get my hands on, from warm milk to melatonin (or seratonin, whichever makes you sleepy and not darker) and nothing had worked very well. The doc finally found something to help me sleep and I went from three to four hours of sleep a night to at least six or seven. That was good. I was getting twice as much sleep. Then they threw me a curve and I had a night where I only got five hours of sleep at best and it just threw me all off. Not as young as I used to be. Why, I can remember..... well, never mind. Best to say I just haven't been on my "A" game the last few days.
Things have been the usual hectic craziness. Nothing extraordinary, just the usual. There's been a few close calls and a few tense moments, but nothing ever came of them and for that I'm glad. We've got another handful of newbies fresh out of the academy in the last week and I can see a couple of them that have that fire in their eyes like they can't wait to mix it up with these knuckleheads and show 'em who's top dog. They worry me a little bit. I know that look. I've seen it in the eyes of quite a few new officers. And in the eyes of a few that have been here a long time and should know better. I'll admit that look has been in my eyes before. When I've reached my limit and some knucklehead just needs a good thumping and you know that it's going to happen no matter what you do, then it's time to do it. But only as a last resort. That's what they don't get yet. And some of them never will. When you go looking for it, somebody always gets hurt. And it's not always the bad guys.